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Yesterday I came to realize that my thoughtless mouth can be more cruel than I realized.
I ruined my marriage.
Thankfully I'm working on myself and getting help, which is leading to a second chance.
I feel like utter dog shit and elated at once.
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@cobra2 You're welcome. I need to be as blunt and frank about myself as I would be with others.
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@cobra2 I'm pretty good with respect overall. I do have an issue with cops and authority in general, but I think that's earned.
I spout off my mouth more than I realized, and with less restraint than I thought.
I also am overly analytical and have troubles with emotions at times.
There's apparently also an overload issue, but I don't understand anything much about it.
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@cobra2 My therapist seems to have had some new insight. I'm half expecting that to be a new diagnosis.
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@x1101 I don't know how sincere I was with that (semi) joke.
He feels very strongly that I have ADHD. But for me it's almost exclusively impulse control. Though there's an overwhelm/shutting down issue too.
Impulse control I know I can handle now that I'm aware of it. Not saying I'll never fuck up, of course.
The shutting down thing is weird. It's a more physical thing. Though I can tell you as a fact that if I'm confronted with an attacker with a knife, I am calm and can take care of business. But more the grind of life I guess? Emotional trauma? I just don't know this part yet.
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@x1101 Thank you very much for the support. I've not forgotten it during this past year. /cc @thaj
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@x1101 Oh, totally. I was just stating, not beating myself up.
I'm more analytical than most, which is part of my emotional detach at times.
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@x1101 But I also do beat up on myself and hold myself to standards others don't for themselves. So that contradicts my last dent.
#peoplingIsHard
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@sim @x1101 Yeah, I've said that I feel like I'm deconstructing my personality's DNA.